Popping a couple of pain pills helped Laurie J. Besden study night after night. They helped her pass the Pennsylvania bar exam. They helped her get more done in a day than many of her colleagues. Then they helped her land in jail.
Besden doesn’t seem like any drug addict you’d picture. She’s smart, motivated — and an overachiever. But she’s one of an alarming number of women who have turned to prescription pills to get ahead — or even just to keep up.
Almost 6 percent of American women, that’s 7.5 million adult women, report using prescription medicines for a boost of energy, a dose of calm or other non-medical reasons, according to the latest numbers from the National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA).
While street drug use has been declining in recent years, prescription drug abuse has been up since the 1990s. The trend has been most striking in women because unlike with most drugs, which are more commonly abused by men, women are just as likely to abuse prescription drugs, says Susan R.B. Weiss, chief of NIDA’s Science Policy Branch.
Blame what some are calling the superwoman syndrome. Overworked, overwhelmed and overscheduled women juggling families, friends and careers are turning to stimulants, painkillers and anti-anxiety meds to help launch them through endless to-do lists.
“Women load their lives with so much that they get in over their heads, and some turn to prescription pills to cope,” says Talia Witkowski, a psychologist in Los Angeles.
Witkowski, 30, began abusing her prescription attention deficit hyperactivity disorder drugs in high school, and has been clean for three years.
“For many women, even those whom you would never suspect, pills offer an escape,” she says. But what many women don’t realize is that they are conducting a dangerous experiment on their health and their mind.
Start of a secret addiction
After graduating from the Dickinson School of Law at Pennsylvania State University in 1999, Laurie Besden felt overwhelmed by the pressure to pass the bar. So she stole a box of Vicoprofen, which contains the narcotic painkiller hydrocodone, from her ex-boyfriend’s father’s house and popped two pills. She had heard the medication could offer a burst of energy and ability to focus.
“I had energy to study for 12 hours and then clean the house like a superwoman,” recalls the 35 year old from Plymouth Meeting, Penn. Eventually, her two-a-day habit grew to 20 a day.
After she passed the bar, she tried to quit, but couldn’t. “If I didn’t take them, I was going to be sick,” she says. “I needed the pills to get out of bed so my heart wouldn’t go into palpitations.”
Then she started a prestigious — and demanding — clerkship, and realized she was completely dependent on her secret stash of pills to get through the day.
For years, she hid this addiction from her friends and family. She no longer even tried to imagine life without her little helpers. Then her source — a doctor who prescribed these pills for any phony condition — had his medical license revoked. Besden figured out how to call in her own prescriptions, using false names and impersonating doctors.
In 2002, she was arrested for the first of what would be five times before she was convicted in 2004 for prescription fraud and jailed for almost a year.
Pills all around
Abuse of prescription drugs has risen right along with increases in the number of prescriptions for stimulants and painkillers seen since the early ’90s, experts note. According to IMS Health, a research firm that tracks prescription use, the use of stimulants has nearly tripled over the past decade.
And as the drugs have become more commonplace, our attitude has become increasingly cavalier. After all, a kid can be given an amphetamine for ADHD, couldn’t Mom benefit from a little extra focus, too?
“Many people may not consider what they’re doing abuse because they’re using a prescribed drug,” says Weiss, of NIDA. “Many of these medications are being taken as performance-enhancers.”
What’s more, studies have found that women are more likely to be prescribed an abusable prescription drug, especially narcotics and anti-anxiety drugs. “Not surprisingly, availability increases use patterns,” Weiss says.
Women aren’t just abusing their own prescriptions; they’re also dipping into friends’ supplies. In one survey, 29 percent of U.S. women admitted to sharing or borrowing somebody else’s prescription drugs in their lifetime. This study, published in the Journal of Women’s Health, found the rate of borrowing was highest among women ages 18 to 44.
That stat is backed by the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration’s National Survey on Drug Use and Health, which found that the main source of prescription drugs among non-medical users — a whopping 56 percent — was free drugs from friends and family.
The most commonly abused pills are opiod painkillers, stimulants and central nervous depressants, generally used to treat anxiety and sleep disorders. But these drugs are used for specific brain chemical imbalances, and if you are healthy, you risk tweaking your brain’s natural abilities to sleep, focus and calm down.
These pills can also undermine your confidence if you begin relying on a pill versus your own strengths and capabilities to get through the day, Weiss says.
Popping too many pills also can trigger an irregular heartbeat and lead to cardiac arrest — and even death. In fact, there’s been an exponential rise in the number of unintentional drug poisoning deaths, which spiked nationwide by more than 68 percent between 1999 and 2004, according to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. Accidental overdose often happens when users build up tolerance to the drugs and must take more and more for the same effect.
Another big worry is that these pills can interact with many other common medications. When combined with over-the-counter cold medicine, for instance, stimulants can drive up blood pressure to dangerously high levels.
But the potential for addiction is the most serious consequence, experts warn.
At age 15, Witkowski, the Los Angeles psychologist, started abusing medications including the Ritalin she’d been prescribed. Once she got into college, she began experimenting with other drugs. “I knew I was living a lie, but I couldn’t stop,” she says. Finally she got help from a treatment program called Heal Your Hunger.
As Witkowski learned, addicts can recover, especially under the guidance of a therapist or program that specializes in addiction.
“An addiction specialist will be able to offer a solid assessment on how much control the addict has lost and what treatment plan is best,” says Dr. Ken Thompson, medical director of Caron, an alcohol and drug addiction treatment center headquartered in Wernersville, Penn. He advises women pursue gender-specific treatment.
“Women often have different motivations than men in abusing prescription drugs, and by being in a women’s-specific program, they’re able to deal with those reasons more effectively,” he says.
A true addiction is a lifelong struggle “This doesn’t mean they’re always going to suffer or be miserable, but they will have to pay attention to their recovery and do things to support staying clean,” Thompson says. At Caron, for instance, addicted women who are in the process of healing are encouraged to eat healthy, exercise, relax and do mind-body activities like yoga.
Dr. Harold C. Urschel III, co-founder of Enterhealth, an addiction recovery program in Dallas, says these are the same strategies he recommends all women follow, especially if they’re turning to a pill to relieve stress or anxiety, even just once. “You’re cheating yourself when you use a pill,” he says.
That’s a message Besden has come to accept, especially in jail, which she says saved her life. “I was forced to get clean, something I didn’t think would happen until I died,” she says. After jail, she sought treatment at Caron where she learned how to live without drugs. Since then she’s been rebuilding her life.
Clean now for six years, Besden’s had her license to practice law in Pennsylvania reinstated. She’s a working attorney in civil law who finds satisfaction in every day activities — like swimming, hanging out with her dog Marcus and helping other lawyers recover from addiction.
Yet she’s also an addict in recovery, attending five support meetings weekly and touching base with her sponsor, and hopes she can inspire other women who have a secret addiction to get help. “Getting clean was the hardest thing I’ve ever done,” she says, “but getting clean and maintaining my sobriety is by far the biggest accomplishment of my life.”
Karen Asp, a freelance journalist who specializes in fitness, health and nutrition, is a contributing editor for Woman’s Day and writes regularly for Self, Prevention, Real Simple, Women’s Health, Shape and Men’s Fitness.